memories..

which is "Yours"? Mine is "A"

2011-11-26T12:03:00.000-08:00

2011-10-24T04:17:00.000-07:00

Muslim were hate because of this 2 country..

they were the fire..

This is what inside american money..

This is an Israel flag..

after operation..

2011-09-22T09:47:00.001-07:00

operation..

2011-09-07T08:43:00.001-07:00

ill be going for my operation tmrw..=(

how i wish she will be there..hais..

4 aug 2011

2011-09-04T00:21:00.000-07:00

current weight now is 72kg

30 aug 2011

2011-08-30T01:57:00.001-07:00

current weight is 74.1kg

memories..

2011-07-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

2011-06-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

random..

2011-05-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

how i wish that u weren't as bitchy as u look..

2011-05-27T23:45:00.000-07:00

tssk!..

i saw ur pic wth u kissing meenho..

omg..

bengang!

u fking bitch..

u spoiled brat..

bitch is as u are now..

how i wish i didnt know u bitch..

fking hypocrite..

go n fk as mny guys as u like..

so disgusting..

-_-"

it hurts me seeing u with another guy..

2011-05-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

hmm..i miss talking to u..otp..

anywae its not the same for me to be talking to other gerls..

aen..

i wan u back cn..??

omgosh..!

i feel so dumb regretting now..

aen..

almost every day i dreamt bout u..

ive realise how much i love for u..

look even a few months cant kill me..

ill wait for u..

i wonder do u still dreamt or think bout me..??

24may2011

2011-05-24T05:53:00.000-07:00

Throughout the years I have struggled to find the answer that I never knew. It strucked me like a million lightnings and here I am telling to you. Look all the things we've done, under the burning sun. Is this the way to carry on? So take a look at yourself and tell me what do you see. A wolf in clothes of the lamb?Unchain your soul from hate, all you need is faith. You control your Life but don't forget Your Destiny... It's time to say goodbye, I know it will make you cry. You make your destiny. I know you'll find the way. And outside the Sun is bright. The things will be allright. I will be back one day to you. So please wait for me..<3

lcp..

2011-05-07T01:15:00.000-07:00

i just got promoted to lcp few months ago..

now then i feel like posting....=)

wishlist..

2011-04-09T21:21:00.000-07:00

lol

2011-03-25T13:44:00.000-07:00

few months has pass..
since i broke up with iidah..
just get to know that she had a bf on her valentine..
its irritating..
but after talking to her..
im half convince..
idk what im feeling right now..
i guess i should just forget bout her..
i keep saying it but somehow someting keeps telling me to hold on..
urgh!
sometimes i feel like hurting her..
i just dont want to bare the consequences..
idw to create trouble for my family..
my life has been ruin by her for now..
i hope i cn overcome it..
i hate my life now..
i have an never ending work back at camp..
i currently dont have any family pbs..
i dont hav a gf pb but a love pb..
how cn she overcome her feelings..
i hate u sahidah bte suhaimi but i love u at the same time..
i want to stop the loving u part..
i hope i cn still be urs in future..
aku harap nasib kite akan baik dlm mase depan..
aku tk kau end up mcm pompan sundal..
at the same time ill improve myself...

...

2011-02-20T03:52:00.001-08:00

hey girl..
i still care bout u..
idk why..
after all this..
haish..
hate to say this..
i still love u..=(

hmm..

2011-02-05T10:58:00.000-08:00

this is what ive been feeling..

1) im not needed..
2) kalau nk barang baru carik..
3)kau mcm tkder feeling..
4) act as if nothing happen between us..
5)y do i feel like ur are heartless..
6) u are making this up just to find another guy behind my back..
7)maybe just maybe u already had ..with hym..
8)u get iiritated at anything that has to do with me..
9)u act cool but deep inside u are burning..
10)u still love me but theres something or someone stopping u..

2-3 feb 2011

2011-02-03T22:52:00.001-08:00

i sick of her..-_-"

2011-01-19T00:17:00.000-08:00

idk if shes giving me high hopes or its true..
if only i understand what she wants..
-_-"
haish..
i thought im over her but in the end..
tssk!
iidah, iidah why are u making me like this..
why did i even know in the first place..
now u are just unlikely to be so irritating, attention seeker, gatal..tssk!
im just fed up with u!
i feel like tieing u at ur grill window...!
urgh!
am i rude, ugly or even rough on u??
ANSWER ME!!!!!!
tssk!
nvm..
now i know how love feels it sucks!!!

aen i still care bout u!!

2011-01-17T00:20:00.000-08:00

u get tired
And upset
And u'r trying to care a little less
When u google u only get depressed
u wast taught to dodge those issues u was told
Don’t worry
There’s no doubt
There’s always something to cry about
When you’re stuck in an angry crowd
They don’t think what they say before they open their mouths

Pack up your troubles in you old kit bag
And bury them beneath the sea
I don’t care what the people may say
What the people may say about me
Pack up your troubles get your old grin back
Don’t worry ’bout the cavalry
I don’t care what the whisperers say
Cos’ they whisper too loud for me.

Hot topic
Maybe I should drop it
It’s a touchy subject
And I like to tiptoe round the tiff goin’ down
You got penny, but no pound
Your business is running out
‘not my business to talk about
They don’t think what they say before they open their mouths.

Pack up your troubles in you old kit bag
And bury them beneath the sea
I don’t care what the people may say
What the people may say about me
Pack up your troubles get your old grin back
Don’t worry ’bout the cavalry
I don’t care what the whisperers say
Cos’ they whisper too loud for me.

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Pack up your troubles in you old kit bag
And bury them beneath the sea
I don’t care what the people may say
What the people may say about me
Pack up your troubles get your old grin back
Don’t worry ’bout the cavalry
I don’t care what the whisperers say
Cos’ they whisper too loud for me.

Yeahh yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah
(dibadabadodooo)

15 jan 11

2011-01-15T14:20:00.001-08:00

go jln2 at town side n now very sleepy gdnyte..

doing duty at camp..

2011-01-13T14:01:00.000-08:00

tssk!
i just woke up..
now is about 0600hrs..
lol!
anywae funny sia the last post..
idk whats their relationship..
but im prepared..
the only thing that keep me going is my friends..
if not idk what to do..
i wont chase her already...
dh mls..
ape dier nk buat2 la..
anywae yesterday i passed by BTT..
im so happy sia..
im taking my FTT soon with my sis..!
haha cant wait to get my car license....
ty

tssk!

2011-01-12T17:33:00.000-08:00

Kira Serizawa kaninabu chau chi bye!!babi nye brother..
23 hours ago · ·
Kira Serizawa rikki ko pon blh suke ekh..
23 hours ago · ·
Kira Serizawa baek ah krg..nie krg nama kn brother perh sial!!
23 hours ago · ·
Rikki Karltuon ko da kenape, kenape ngan ko??
23 hours ago · ·
Kira Serizawa buto ah!!
yg ko like asl?asl ko like?
23 hours ago · ·
Rikki Karltuon asl ke....? stakat ku like je pe...ko da kenape..??
23 hours ago · ·
Kira Serizawa ko nk like2..ko punye psl ah..asl bnyk2 gamba nie ko like?ada gamba laen perh..kire kn ko suke ah die ngn iidah?
23 hours ago · ·
Rikki Karltuon oi bdh...ni stakat gamba....klau ko amek gambe ngan dia pn aku like la giler....tkmo ckp sambarang ar....like i say....ko tk tau cita..tkmo sambarang hembos...
23 hours ago · ·
Syuk GaLah
oi....ni sekarang aku lepas kan dia...
and apa2 lepas ni aku tak tahu ah eah...
and kalau dia yang bbl dgn aku kau tak leh sala kan aku....
btw kalau brother kan kalau lpk tempat lain brother blg each other kay....tak yah nak aku carik korang......See More
22 hours ago · ·
Kechyk Loylittaa
orix : eh psl satu orq kao nk qdh ?
pe ko peh maksud sia .
tlq arh eh , like tk semesti nya dia suke pe .
ko tk perlu maki perh ? leh ckp nan cara baek .
syuk n orix :
...the best men win , nieq semua adat .
ppn tuh have the rite who tuh choose and one more thinq antara syuk n dia kwn , nothinq more . orix : tk perlu lebih2 arh tk perlu pera2 nan brother ko sendiri .
rikki : stay out of it ! lSee More
17 hours ago · · 1 personLoading... ·
Rikki Karltuon keckyk > i can stay out klau dia bbl baek2 pe....org yg tk bersala and tk tau pape kene maki gitu mcm....haiz...
17 hours ago · · 1 personLoading... ·
Celak Boncet BUTO UH KRG ! taqq perlu naqq maki'maki kat tmpt sini pahh ? boleyh bbl ngan care baeqq pahh ?? asl kene maki'maki xiaa .. btw , nie gmbr aku yang ameqq keyh .. abeyh asl ? AND orix ; abg taqq perlu naqq maki'maki syuk psl thu pmpn uh eyh .. psl NONOK pon naqq godah per xial ? KIMAK ~ NONOK BOLEYH CARIK PAHH ? RAMAI SHIOT NONOK KAT LUAR .. MANA MANA BOLEYH CARIK .. TAQQYAHH NAQQ GADOH UH !! wtf xiaa krg .. MEREPEK LAHH .. takmo kerane NONOK krg gadoh eyh .. pls uh eyh .. NABEYH CHIBAI !!
14 hours ago · · 2 peopleLoading... ·
Rikki Karltuon Celak > lol....dia kate tk pelu maki2 kat sine....pi dia sediri maki2....lol...ada la adq...-.-
14 hours ago · ·
Celak Boncet LIKE taqq semesti nye syuk SUKE ngan dier pehh ? btol taqq ? and abg orix .. skrg nie kao yang salah phm .. and byk citee aku dgr psl thu pmpn ngan laki laen uh keyh .. LIKE I SAY ; ASK BEFORE YUU STARTED IT .. AND THINK BEFORE YUU START WIF YOUR VULGARITIES WIF SOMEONE ELSE .. and hell jyeaa !
14 hours ago · · 3 peopleLoading... ·
Celak Boncet sape kate taqq perlu maki kat sini ? klaw dier yang ckp ? dhen asl dier yg start dulu ? WTF ~ mepek nahh .. nie uh manusia zaman sekarang .. waduh waduh ~ can't say much :)
14 hours ago · ·
Rikki Karltuon lol.l....da2....tkmo prah2 kat sine...the oil is very the mahal tau....lol
14 hours ago · · 2 peopleLoading... ·
Aie Chunker Kecohh pahh orix ?! takk abesabes uhh kao , asyek pasal pompan jekk .
14 hours ago · · 2 peopleLoading... ·
Aie Chunker
Orix : Cube kalao kao tuhh kat tempat syuk , beyh kao ambek gambar ngan member kao , pompan . Beyh tawutawu ade laki laen makimaki kao tak tentu pasal , kao suke ?! haiyoo . Padahal kao ngan tuhh pompan member jekk ? amaciam ? Piker uhhh , ...klao yerhh ponn , boleh bebual perh ? Kao pandai ehyk nasihat orang tapikk , cara sendiri takk betol . Fyi , kao jangan ingat aku niy nakk menangkan syukk , tapikk its the fact . piker laah sendiri , klao pasal pompan peyh pasal kao nakk giniy macam ngan brother sendiri , serious laah sia , malukan diri kao sendiri jekk . Jatoh Boi !See More
14 hours ago · · 3 peopleLoading... ·
Celak Boncet I agreed wif my aie chunker .. :) ♥

tssk! she win!

2011-01-10T04:25:00.000-08:00

fb no one add me like about a month..
the onli person who talk on my wall is amer or ahlian..
no msg, no one poke me.. tssk!
haish!
hmm..
i wish..
shes a soft hearted gerl which cn 4giv me..n start all over..
lol..
idk how to describe..
shes seems to be different i mean...nvm..
tssk!
im confused...(thinking)
bored at home..pfft!

without her also cn stress..

2011-01-09T06:55:00.000-08:00

hmm past few days theres up & down..
anywae..
ive feeling awkward past few days been thinking bout so mny things..
im a jerk sometimes..
pfft! i know..
that is just me..
i think thats the reason why mny ppl are leaving me..?
haish..
if only u are here to guide me like u always do..
but wth!
u would be preety bz with ur own life ryte now..
hmm.
lol
i hope u will have a bright future ahead of u..
i would sure to see u happy..
i may be angry to whats happening now but deep inside i still care..tssk!
enrique iglesias so hendsome sia..
lol!

i wan find...

2011-01-06T06:14:00.000-08:00

i wan all this cann!!!!

pls la..!

you've change alot

2011-01-04T00:58:00.000-08:00

hmm..
i talked to iidah otp jus now..
by the looks of it shes change for real..
tssk!
anywae i kinda miss listening to her voice..
haish..
i guess this is a one shot deal..
its really over..
anywae so mny guys are after her..
so ill be like usual the last thing in her life..
hmm..
why am i not like other who are mature, hendsome, funny..n fun to be with..
im a boring guy..
pfft!
i still like her though..
but the way she talked to me i guess theres no hope..
but wth..i cn still be her friend ryte..
after all this how cn she forget me..right??
k la im planning to lose 2kg more by next week..

why does her face keeps popping up?

2011-01-02T20:42:00.000-08:00

tssk!
almost everyday i keep dreaming of her..
her= heartless, effortless & ROSAK gerl..
haha..
i made that up..
if YP u wanna be then be it..
pfft!
anywae countdown was fun..
i celebrated it at sembawang park with my campmates zugaikotsu akaime..
jiran sebelah was so noisy like wanna sound them!!
urgh!
im beginning to be more impatient..
idk why..i dont blame her..
tssk!
anywae i hope this year will be a great year..
N I WISH U ARE HAPPY BEING WITH UR FRIENDS..ty!

ive given u too much

2010-12-31T22:12:00.000-08:00

im taking back my love

this what u use to sing..=(

new year = new life

2010-12-30T05:30:00.000-08:00

hmm.. new years is tmrw...
i guess this is it..
ive actually wrote 12 letters that i thought of giving to her but end up i throw all away cause i just hate to see her freakng face..
tssk!
why is it called a freaking face cause she shows to me that everytime i see her..
hmm.. nvm..bout..her..
tmrw my hub is going to have a bowling competition and for the first time in my hub i didnt volunteer i just dont feel like having any prizes..
its like u get someting gd but theres no one for u to show it or share it with..
simply a loner..
anywae ive loss 2kg its an improvement..
3kg here i come!!
tssk!
im getting the hang of it..
a new life is ahead of me..=P
ty u make me realise who is the penyangak! tssk! talk much! think less!tssk!

the look u gave me..=(

2010-12-27T02:47:00.001-08:00

Termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
tak mampu ku melupakan
walau kian kehilangan

kerna ku terlalu ingin kan
untukmu riang berkekalan
rela ku berlalu
walau mungkin tak termampu

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin akan ku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Tak mungkin mudah kau mengerti
tak ingin saling di lukai
kedaifan ini
menjadi penghalang sanubari

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin daku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku

...

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku

termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
moga kau mengerti
bila nadi ku terhenti

now i know how true loves feel..

2010-12-22T21:58:00.000-08:00

i cant sleep properly i keep having bad dreams about her..
im scared of her when i think of it..
shes use to be my one n only..
now mny ppl are chasing her now that all know shes single..
i love you till now..
but bit by bit..its hurting deep inside me knowing n u will be somebodys..
the phrase "kau suke kan? kau g balik la, lagi kau kat sini dorang salah kan aku.."it keeps popping up in my dream..
u are my nightmare..
how i wish we cn just talk things over then be like this..
but its no use now..
since im the troublemaker..
im sry..
if u dont wish to see me nvm..
i just dont want u to c u sad...
i cant bare to c u cry it hurts me alot..
u hold too mny memories with me..
promise me one thing cn?
dont let anyone c andut, kebey, bubu, eeyore..bf?
if u miss me hug bf..
im having phoebia seeing u n ur family..
im sry..

feelings 2wards u..

2010-12-22T06:24:00.000-08:00

-sry if i didnt be the best u wanted me to be..
-sry if i make u hate me badly..
-sry if i hurt u..
-sry if i make u what u are now..
-sry for making ur family look down on us..
-sry if i making u lose all ur fwens..
-sry kalau i menyusahkan hidup u, i didnt mean it..
-sry if i make u think im a somebody while else im a nobody actually..
-sry for making u angry..
-sry for making u cry day & night..
-sry for saying i love you but not showing it..
-sry for hurting ur feelings..
-sry if i make u menyesal knowing me..
-sry if i always disturb u..
-sry if im selfish to u sometimes..
-sry if i scold ur parents..
-sry if im not as hendsome or cute as some other guy..
-sry if i make u irritated sometimes..
-sry for controlling u..
SRY FOR ANYTHING ELSE I DID NOT MENTION..
I JUST DONT WANT IT TO BE THIS WAY SRY!!

you are impossible to find..

2010-12-21T22:57:00.000-08:00

Lyrics | Secondhand Serenade lyrics - Fall For You lyrics

wishlists for a new year

2010-12-20T01:05:00.000-08:00

-get promoted..
-get my driving licence
-get two more shirts from cotton on
-master my photography
-lose 5kg
-get my body build up n running
-get a bicycle
-get a new bed
-buy a jean from levi's original
-buy a jacket from uni qlo
the one in bold is what i wan to achieve first.."

pfft!
thinking bout her just make me crazy..
i just our life back..
you just make it hard..
is it too hard too ask for..?
i just wish she wouldnt be so ...urgh!
cant be decribe!

this is 4 u..

2010-12-19T16:39:00.000-08:00

i was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm at camp thinkin all about my baby.

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

16/12/10

2010-12-16T04:55:00.000-08:00

went town with group of nonsensical ppl from my camp..

haha..!

i miss her alot..

she is still mad at me..

trying to move on..

but my hati havent bukak untuk orng lain..

if only i could rewind back time..

that would be the luckiest day ever..

SHE ANGRY OR TRYING TO ACT ANGRY THATS IS THE QUESTION..?

kalau kol sala, kalau jumpe sala, then how to talk to her like that? o_0"

k im seriously sick with life..

ive so mny regrets..

why did i even felt in love..??

ive already regretted what ive done..

i deserve a second chances..-_-"

...=(...

small space

2010-12-15T06:36:00.001-08:00

AEN I MISS U VERY MUCH..

I'M TRYING TO MOVE AWAY AND GIVE SPACE..

HAISH..

I'M SCK OF LIFE..

I JUST WANNA SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU THATS ALL..

HAHA!

AENTA..PAYES PUNYE..

NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY FROM ME..!

i juz regretted loving you..

2010-11-30T21:15:00.000-08:00

IDAH N FARIZ HAS OFFICIALLY ENDED THEIR RELATIONSHIP...
TY FOR BEING THERE FOR WHEN I NID U..
U WILL ALWAYS BE MY LOVE..
ITS JUZ THAT WE WONT MAKE IT..
TY AGAIN..

crazy time..

2010-11-29T07:53:00.001-08:00

I HAD THE GREATEST N THE SADEST DAY OF MY LIFE..

SERIOUSLY ITS BEEN TOUGH N GREAT THIS FEW DAYS..

I'M JUST A LOSER WHO WILL NEVER HAVE A PERFECT LIFE..

I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS AWESOME..

HAISH..

BUT NOTHING COMES ALONG GREATLY..

ANYWAE I MISS MUMMY..

IVE ALWAYS MISSED HER..

HMM..

MY BDAE HAS JUZ ENDED 11 MINS AGO..

SO START COUNTING AGAIN..

HAISH..

IF ONLY SHE COULD JUST CHANGE FOR THE SAKE OF ME..!!

HAHA!!

I GUESS THAT CAN'T HAPPEN..

URGH!!

SHES STUBBORN!!

BUT YET I STILL LOVE HER SO MUCH!!

IDK WHY..

ANYWAE IM BEGINNING TO ACCEPT THE WAY SHE IS..

IF ONLY LIFE IS FAIR..

HAHA!!

ANYWAE I GUESS IT IS BUT IM THE ONLY PERSON WHO DOESN'T APPRECIATE IT..

K LA..

TATS ALL..

28 nov..

2010-11-27T08:46:00.001-08:00

my life is so wasted!!

2010-11-24T08:30:00.000-08:00

"you might be hurt babe, that ain't no lie, you have seen them come and go"

"every little thing i do, never seems enough for u, you dont wanna lose it again, but im not like them, baby, when u finally, get to love somebody, guess what..? its gonna be ME!♥"

"you are just too blind(too blind) to see, but in the end, u know its gonna be ME!"

"im sorry for what ive done but what you have done is far way more worst!"

bertahan satu cinta..

2010-11-20T23:49:00.000-08:00

when i came u were sleeping..
i was thinking not to disturb u sleep cause u were sleeping..
but u saw me and u didnt even say hi..
am i not welcome in ur house anymore for u?
u still scold over stupid things..
i was thinking to go out with u 2dae..
but as usual ur friends are way much important..
bile u gan shahidah kerje perna tk dier kesian pat u..?
sometimes i wonder why i let u work..
meanwhile everthing u nid is already there..
kasi kerje sala..
kasi lpk sala..
haish...
nothing is ryte..
im typing here meanwhile listening to..(d'bagindas-cinta)
i want to see how long can this last..
im not askin u to hate me..
the porridge i gav u was my breakfast..
i gave u casue i know u love it so much..
i love you..
still..
u treat me like a stranger..<3
suke hati u k..
im bored at home..
hav fun at "work"
urgh!!-_-"
ill end here

all about u

2010-11-20T07:54:00.000-08:00

5 nov- 15 nov

i really dont understand why must she treat me like this..
i was so curious..
i admit im jealous of her siiting down the her blk with a group of unknown to me guys ..
the thing i hate the most bout her is..
she explain to me everything bout this certain guys like as if she knew them too well to be through..

16nov- 20 nov

somehow i feel like shes going to dump me anywae..
haish..
dulu bile u tk lawa orng tk nk bile dh lawa orng nk u pun nk..
how dare u told me me that u love the way as u love the guy under ur blk..
it hurts me truly..
omg then when i ask u..
u told me that u didnt mean it..
i left my friends for u..
why?
cause i love u so much to be true..
i admit i was at fault..
but im beginning to think that u are putting a revenge on me..
u msg kwn bile u boring..?
perna tk u msg i tanye "u dh mkn, u gan uat per i boring la, etc"
why are u doing this to me..
i feel like yesterday night u were so secretive towards me..
i still tk puas somehow i was imagining that u were waiting for me to sleep so that u can call ur so call friends either underblk or "bestfriends"..
haish..
the only thing that makes me want to write here today is that..
im a loner..
i dont actually like to share with friends this pb..
its makes me feel like they will take advantage..
u hate me touching u..
u always scold over stupid things..
u hide ur hp when u were sleeping..
u force me to sleep..
u act as if u were sleeping but actually u were waiting for me to sleep so that i wouldnt know wat u were doing..
u cant msg me or call why?u scared that ur bill might rise up..
u call ur "bestfriend" every 1hr-30mins..
u do not want me to sent u back home..
u purposely make me angry when i already am..
i feel like our love will not make it ..
i love you so much..
then wtf are u so irresponsible, selfish n especially heartless..
idk..YOU ARE SO WEIRD!!

16 may

2010-05-15T13:57:00.001-07:00

preety bz ryte now since im in army..
went out with iidah to far east bought her a jacket..

eat famous amos..

n then night met up with nurul..

long tyme nvr see her..

tats all..

now im so sleepy..

Universal Studio Presents:

2010-04-16T17:34:00.000-07:00

this is a lifetime memories tat will be kept by me..
u guys must go! its a must!
let the pichas do the talking..

all i cn say is its a Good Good place!!

Mother fcker..

2010-04-12T02:59:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION!!

this is a message tats goes to all of u who are reading this..
theres a guy name CARSTEN PA PIETER..
hes a scammer..
he will tell u guys tat he had gave u guys 10mil in ur bank acc..
n he wans to u to confirm with him..
he wans u to confirm with him ur bank acc so tat the fund tat had been transfered to u is succesfull..
guys pls remember tat name on top..
he is a scammer..
the email u received might look like a real DOCUMENT..
but bare the thought tat this type of DOCUMENT should be private n must be sent personally..
dont go off giving ur bank acc to him..
plss

and this is his email..
carstenpieter@12.com

1week..

2010-03-31T15:53:00.001-07:00

Traveling looks fun..

i want to travel around the world..

but when and where is the question..

not the best but not the worst..

2010-03-24T09:04:00.000-07:00

woke up at 5..

fetch iidah..

went to jappi bdae party..

had fun with the kids..

eat till full..

but then i felt tat something was missing..

enjoying..

tats was wat i miss..

i didnt enjoy..

they drink n drink..

n ive to entertain hanaf..

zzzz

bored..

then..

something unexpected happen..

i asked jappi to folo me to CHEERS..

bought some drink..

then we actually share stories with each other..

this was wat i missed from him for so long..

i feel sad for him as i also feel sad for his son..

haish...

things was diff last tyme..

i used to drink, smoke n even take gum..

but everthings change..

n i like it this way..

they had some pb n everybody started to hav pb!

i dont reaaly understand..

was wrong..!

it was suppose to be enjoyful..

zzzz!

i hate hanaf..zzzz

he really enjoyed..

but himself..

he didnt think of others..

wasnt it suppose to be his day..

not urs!

zzz!

dont wish to elaborate..

anywae i love my brothers!

live long always..

happy bdae..

2010-03-23T13:56:00.000-07:00

23 march..

its a birthday for my friend/brother..
the named..
jappi..
HAPPY 21th BIRTHDAY jappi.!
even though its was happy for a moment it turn horrible..
dont wish to elaborate more..
haish..
anywae ill be putting pichas later idk when..

sad thing to see..

2010-03-22T10:44:00.001-07:00

this is wat i didnt wan to see when i was young..

my mom..

haish..

died from small intestine cancer..

all i wanted was love n care from her..

i get, but it wasnt wat i thought it would be..

i know she loves us as a family..

but she doesnt wants to show it..

wat i know is tat we will be seeing each other one day..

cant wait for tat day..

all i wan to say is tat shes the best mom i hav ever had..

i love u ma..

we will still pray for u..

hmm..

2010-03-20T11:42:00.001-07:00

heylo..

yesterday i was about to post but i was too lazy..

sry for not updating my post for so long..

hmm..

yesterday i went out with my long lasting skool friends..

nysha n min..

we went town n i enjoyed going out with them..

min n nysha suits each other well..

hope to go out often with them..

then 2dae..

me n iidah cook "curry ala masakan cine"

at her house n baba cu was the chef..

it was lots of fun..

then..

we went to IMM to go shopping..
me n iidah took some pichas there..

as u cn see on top..

then we ate LJS aww the choco pie taste like shit..

haha..!

boo!!!!!

but the fish n chicken so very nice!!

woo!

haha!

cant wait for tmrw..

i wan to help iidah cut her hair..!

hehehe! {sinister laugh}*

Random Post

2010-03-06T09:23:00.000-08:00

ily so much i mean it..
u hav done so mny things for me..
no choice having a nice relationship without any sacrifices..
its a random post..
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNI..
i wont let u down..
i promise u that..

Misteri..

2010-03-04T07:54:00.000-08:00

how i wish..
my mum didnt die..
how i wish..
we as a family have settle down..
i wan this family to be simple..
haish..
my big bro is a big fcker..
i admit he is still my bro but he is a fker from beginning n till the end i guess..
haish..
my father now receive a call from idk who..
i dont need another mother..
pls god i beg not to giv me one more..
i know my father is not tat type..
plsss..
im crying once again..
its so stressful cant to think of it..
idk wat will happen if my father actually wants another wife..
zzz..
i cant live without my father..
nor my mother..
i love you both..
i swear i will not live in the same house as my father if he wish to remarry..
if i do..
wat if the wife does the things tat i hate..
but i dont think she will torture me..
if she does we will see who torture who..!
im sad..

i hope u guys help me...
anywae haiti needs u..

Moving forward

2010-02-13T05:53:00.000-08:00

haish.

live moves on..

my elder brother is getting married soon..

live will change..

i dont know what to do anymore..

ill always cry silently at night thinking about her..

i still remember the first time i actually hug my own mom..

n tat was when whe wanted to take off to haji..

n then the second n the last was when i wanted to go home tat day from the hospital..

those who is reading this..

pls take care of ur parents theres no time once they are lost n u will be alone..

i promise u guys..

juz kiss or hug them whenever u can..

-cause its the last thing u cn giv, LOVE..

my heart shrinks like fuck!

my thoughts always goes blank in the middle of the night..

ive got enough problems! why must this got to come..

so, so stress..

i dont even know when is my father turns..

family,gf n even friends..

i think its life this way..

i dont blame god or anything..

i am acpting the fact..

but its juz tat the fact cant be acpted..

u dont understand nvm..

haish..

im not lost..

im still straight..

i dont hav attitude pb this days..

idk maybe a little..

..end here..

time past by..

2010-02-12T19:21:00.000-08:00

its been 46 days..

its like 46 hours for me..

i always dream about her..

how can i still live or move on..

shes been there at home when i come back home..

she shouts, when she's back home morning..

i miss those time..

i must just accept the fact that shes gone and never coming back..

cant to think of it..

she was the whole thing that ever happen to me..

she will buy for me food after coming back from work..

she will shout when the house is untidy..

she will scold when we never help her..

theres so many..

my thinking has been slow past few days..

i cant think clearly..

i cant see forward..

people will say you must think on the bright side..

but does it have a bright side..?

i dont think so..

i cant make it..

idk..

maybe yes i can with the support from my father but its not the same..

last time i always think what does it feel wthout any parents..

will i make it..?

then i say yes i can..

but after that, this happened..

and i asked myself again..

will i make it now..?

omg of cource no!

haish..

ive been playing game all this while to stop thinking..

i always told myself that shes here with us sleeping in the room..

when i wake up in the morning i said..

shes here taking a bath ..

when i eat at night i said..

she inside the room watching tv..

haish..

ill stop here..

cant say anymore..too depress..

allahyarham..

2010-02-11T07:18:00.000-08:00

ma i love you..

i cant stop saying it..

i know you are in a better place..

ill be with you ma..

i promise you that..

kesayagan ibu tidak boleh ganti ape-ape..

kesayagan anak datang dari milik ibunya..

haish..

cant forget you

Nicest day..

2010-02-10T14:35:00.001-08:00

This is a story of a girl next door.

Once there was a beautiful girl who support his boyfriend like no other girl would..

she would go an extra mile just to make him happy..

she was a cheerful type of girl who always smile even on the not adequate day..

she's everything now..

this girl name is Sahidah bte Suhaimi..

she took care of my family like hers..

i never actually get a girlfriend to know my family..

i have done so many things with her..

she hav made so many problems sometimes but she doesnt failed to make u laugh too..

she's quite naughty n clumsy sometimes but u can manage her..

i love her alot..

im not going to make her day a terrible one..

as ill promise she is my life..

she's mine routine of life..

my parents love her..

i want to proof to them that im not going to leave her..

bi i love you i mean it..

i was suppose to say this on 5 feb but i didnt..

"Happy 1 year anni"

it isnt a big thing..

i still aim futher..

i love you..

ty for taking care of me..

ill stop here..

Long, Long time

2010-02-10T02:35:00.000-08:00

Demi masa ke masa..
kamu membesar kan aku..
dengan kesayangan mu..
aku telah sedar..
siapa kah aku..
dan siapa kah kamu..
ma im sry for always not listening to you..
i didnt be the best son you always had..
i even scold you and shouted at you..
now i know where i stand..
but as people say telah "seseorang itu pergi baru kesedaran menimpa"..
i love you i even took care of you in the hospital..
i cant wait to see you ma..
ive made this blog to let out my feeling as im writing this my tears is actually pouring down my cheeks..
now as you can see im changing bit by bit..
im gonna be a better person i promise you that im gonna stop my nonsense..
ma i juz cant bear seeing you away from me..
i always think that you hate me..
as the time past by in the hospital i know how much you had actually love me..
i even hug you..
ma..
i cant bear this..
you hav helped me alot and now its my turn to repay you by helping baba since you cant be here..
ill end it here..

The come back

2010-02-09T06:01:00.000-08:00

guys..

as you know its not easy for me now..

since you know what..

i dont wish to recall anything tat happen in the past..

i juz made this back so that i can let out my feelings..

i cant make a person be my diary..

it doesnt work..